I am completely feeling like this is me and going to be me FOREVER!
Today I had Angels brothers funeral to attend. I went with my aunt and T. I didn't know her brother well, but I know the family. Angel and I used to be really good friends~ We have drifted apart due to lots of factors. Well, the funeral put me in a somber mood to begin with. Once, I got there I saw a guy I dated for a little while with his wife. I hadn't seen him in at least 3 years. His mom, wife and he ended up sitting on the same row with us. I really liked him a few yrs ago, so this just (yuk) added to my mood.
T was in a suit and actually looked handsome. This is one of my best friends and I never *look* at him in a sexual light. We just have a great friendship. But I even started thinking, ummm I have a bachelor friend that isn't even interested in dating.
(Yes, I'm feeling like POOR me.)
The minister remarks and the whole death aspect, makes me re evaluate my own life and the special people I do have, like my family left. TELL SOMEONE YOU DON"T ALWAYS TELL YOU LOVE THEM!!!! It really can make a difference.
T and I went to the Market, my fav place in town...it was candle light and sunset....and sauteed okra with lobster tails in a white wine tomato sauce. Can I say YUM? We went shopping after dinner, I bought the new Eagles and Rascal Flatts (with "My WISH") cds. I am now home, outta the shower and still feeling blue. Seeing all the Valentine stuff out and worring about mom doesn't help. She's had her worst week yet after this 3rd round of chemo. She's really winded and feels a strain on her heart. I'm worried.
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Funerals are never nice I hate having to go when they come along, they are so sad.
Sorry about your Mum but she is so lucky to have a daughter who loves her as much as it is obvious you do.
funerals are no fun. I try to avoid them at all costs. Gravesides and casket visits or as we Native Americans do, we sit up with the dead overnight, the dead are never left alone. Church and chapel funerals make me sad/depressed.
I am sorry your feeling blue ((hugs)) I never ever pictured you as "the crazy cat lady" you have good of taste in many things and an intriguing zest for adventure, albeit a somewhat safe zest-ha! just picking on you for not filling out the entire questionairre. Anyhow, your very beautiful and your very smart/funny. Mr. Right will come along....just dont settle for Mr. Right Now, that'd be a huge mistake.
Your team is going to WIN today...I just know it.
That Crazy Cat Lady action figure is pretty cool. Is that for real?
I hope your Mom feels better. My Mom had three surgeries for cancer and seems to be doing alright, but then she goes to the doctors and then never actually says anything relating to her medical conditions.
Put it into God's Hands. That is all that you can do.
As far as Valentine's Day is concerned, you should probably put that in God's Hands too. Hopefully the right guy will come into your life.
Your Saints post does not allow any comments. So I just wanted to let you know that The Saints CHOKED. They got SMOKED!!
Reggie Bush is just like Ronnie Brown of the Miami Dolphins. A whole lot of smoke and mirrors and hype. $20 Million Dollar salary and the guy couldn't buy a yard on 4th down.
Not to mention that The Saints defense collapsed. It was a beautiful story up until today. I was rooting for the Saints to make it. Even though they lost, you should be proud of them.
My favorite team (the Fins) certainly sucked this year (and they have not been to the playoffs in 5 years).
Funerals always make us reflect-- I know how it goes. I know how you feel about seeing ex's with their new wives and such. I used to be the same way, and I have to admit, in a way, I still hate seeing an ex with someone *bad isn't it?*
Anyway, I know it doesn't help having married friends always saying, "you'll find someone when the time is right", or, "when you least expect it"-- that shit always pissed me off, so I'll tell you this. No matter what you do, have fun. Take care of you, live for you, do what makes YOU happy, when you do that, you'll find someone who enjoys the things you do, too. :0)
Your mom is definitely in my prayers, please, keep us posted on how she's doing *hugs*
Dont wait for a man to come into your life... live for today...
You dont need a man to be happy...
And then oneday out of the blue.. someone just right will be there...
never lose hope...
Your mum is in my thoughts...
Stay safe... Nannette
I hate funerals as well,and used to avoid them.After I lost my brother last year I now realise I should of gone to all those "other" funerals to offer my support and show that I cared for these people and their loved ones.
I hope your mother is feeling better soon and understand your worrying.I'll be thinking of you both.
Funerals are very depressing to me, too. I can never cry at them, though. It's like I block it out. Anyhow, I'm sure your presense was the support they appreciated most.
Lost loves. Can't waste time on them. they are the infamous "waht if's". Live for yourself. Enjoy life as it comes. Take chances and grow as an individual. (listen to me! Ha, if I could follow my own advice! LOL)
So very sorry the Saints lost to Da Bears. It was a sad game. sigh...
Chin up, this mood will pass. Both you & your Mom are in my thoughts. D :)
Sorry about our guys in Sunday. The game sucked!
I am sorry about the Saints. They've come a long way from last year so keep your chin up.
I don't want a funeral. I want a celebration of life and some rockin' contemporary Christian music and just pictures of me sitting around from various ages (and hair colors).
Don't worry about not having a better half yet. As long as you are out circulating and not sitting at home, waiting for him to drive by and go, "THERE SHE IS, inside that apt, behind that closed door", you'll meet somebody.
The more fun and confident you act, the more you start to believe it and the more others notice. And I know it's not easy, I've talked to Greg but haven't seen him in 2 weeks because of his work schedule. But I'm faking "breezy" and he was so happy the other day to know I was handling it okay. (PFFFFFT)
My youngest daughter, Rose, is going to be a crazy cat lady. It's become a family joke! Animals are just drawn to her and vice versa. She doesn't want to get married when she grows up. She just wants lots of animals.
I'd love to find that figurine lol
I hope your mum won't need too much more chemo :o(
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