Sunday, December 31, 2006

NYE 2007

Onions and Christmas trees
A family is at the dinner table. The son asks his father, "Dad, how many kinds of boobs are there? The father, surprised, answers, "Well, son, there are three kinds of breasts.
In her 20s, a woman's breasts are like melons, round and firm.
In her 30s to 40s, they are like pears, still nice but hanging a bit.
After 50, they are like onions". "Onions?" "Yes, you see them and they make you cry."

This infuriated his wife and daughter so the daughter said, "Mum, how many kinds of 'willies' are there?"
The mother, surprised, smiles and answers, "Well dear, a man goes through three phases.
In his 20s, his Willy is like an oak tree, mighty and hard.
In his 30s and 40s, it is like a birch, flexible but reliable.
After is 50s, it is like a Christmas tree". "A Christmas tree?" "Yes - dead from the root up and the balls are just for decoration."

Well, it's New Years Eve and I have just finished FOLDING CLOTHES! Wahoooooo...oh the excitement. It's so hard to contain myself. I have another warm load in the dryer. I mean it doesn't get any better than this....

"Sad but True" as James Hetfield would say. I spent the day cooking and throwing some shit away. I need to do soooooooo much more! I cooked a meatloaf, a hashbrown casserole, peas, and black eyes peas. I have food for a week. Knowing that I go back to school day after tomorrow, I wanted to have some dinners to nibble on. My Saints played their second string guys and we LOST.

I did treat myself to a mani and pedi last this eve...I mean what the hell else did I have planned???!!!! I thought G might call and wanna do something. NOPE
T invited me to Buffalo's with him and a bud...A invited me over to her parents place...I wanted to be all warm and snuggly with a guy tonight. It's rainy here and VERY HUMID....ICK

GUess I am gonna have to settle for DESTINY my only male kitty....He's my heart and soul anyway...he never lets me down.

For some reason Blogger will not let me post any pics my last 2 posts..GRRRRRR
Happy FUCKIN New Year.

Saturday, December 30, 2006

N' Da Playoffs

Morning~ I am just getting home from dinner and drinks with T and A. He took us out. I had a shot and a couple of cosmo's. I am not feeling any pain.
I am however, looking forward to tomorrow when I get to SEE my Saints in action their last game of the season. My guys made it to the play offs....( I AM SOOOOO PROUD)!!!!! I really hope they win tomorrow afternoon... Wish them luck!

Well, I had my friend with benefits over last night. It had been almost 6 months, and I was losing my mind. He's so sweet. It was an enjoyable evening for all.

The G man hasn't benn calling~ he knew I was in N.O. buts still he should have called. He's got alot of pent up hostility. I have figured out if it's towards life, work or even the ex. I guess it's more macho if a guy shows anger and a gal shows sadness?????

I am glad Saddam was hung and that the U.S. were not the ones to do it!

No New Yrs plans for me except the game~ all the bars are closed here~ they open at midnight. T bought me a bottle of champagne...not that I need it. But I guess he figures just in case....he's really depriving a lucky gal out of a relationship. He is either scared of commitment...or has intimacy issues. He has the best heart!

Thursday, December 28, 2006

Vic and Nat

This is for my city..I am NOT AT ALL a Brad fan. COnfused why so many ladies think he's soooo hot (not).

GOSSIP: Brad and Angelina to star in “Vic and Nat’ly: The Movie”
Brad Pitt’s announcement of the winner of a Katrina-reconstruction design competition was hijacked by the revelation of his newest film project: “Vic ‘n Nat’ly: The Movie.”

Pitt and his real-life wife, Angelina Jolie, will star as the classic New Orleans cartoon characters brought to life on the big screen.
Acclaimed helmer Steven Soderbergh (“Erin Brockovich,” “Ocean’s 11”) will direct the script, adapted from the Bunny Matthews cartoons by legendary screenwriter Robert Towne (“Chinatown,” “Mission: Impossible”).
According to industry whispers, the story will center on Vic and Nat’ly’s departure from the 9th Ward and eventually settling on the Northshore.
Matt Damon and Ben Affleck have already signed on to play Rocky and Carlo. Julia Roberts will play Angela Hill. George Clooney is even rumored to have a cameo as a Hubig’s Pie delivery man.
The project is the latest adaptation of Vic and Nat’ly by creator Bunny Matthews. His Vic ‘n Natly-themed restaurant opened in Covington in July.
Preproduction on the film will start in November with shooting scheduled to take place in January and February.
“Vic and Nat’ly are classic New Orleans characters,” Pitt said. “Angelina and I simply hope to do them justice.”
Asked by this reporter to do his best Ninth Ward accent, Pitt replied: “I’m gonna be needin’ a dialect coach, dawlin’.”
No word yet, dear readers, on how to apply for that job.


Well..I feel a bit more relaxed today. It may have something to do with the fact I treated myself to a massage and a facial this afternoon. I needed to de-stress. I came home a lit Pineapple Paradise a few of them in the house. It was one of my favorite scents that Yankee Candle used to put out. Well, they stopped over a year ago...but I kept a few on hand for special occassions. I went thru mail, cleaned out my wallet (all of my receipts from home---I love to spend money). I felt guilty...when I called and got my credit card balance. YIKES.

My oldest friend Linda wants to come see me this weekend from La. Well, she wants to go out and prowl for men. I'm not sure I am up for the company. I told her I'd let her know tomorrow. I have enjoyed this day to ME. I need another one or two, hell even three before I go back to work. She's who I went out with in the Quarter---both of our moms are dealing with BC. But her mom is a year in to it.

K...going to bed~ curling up with Estee Lauder Day wear (new moisturizer, I LOVE)...after I all I do smell good. I used my Bath and Body caramel body wash and their Vanilla body lotion...I hope to snuggle up to Harmony and drift blissfully into a DEEP much needed SOUND sleep.
May you all have dreams of cute men...and for Mick, may your dreams be of cute gals!

Wednesday, December 27, 2006


OK. I'm home. I'm wiped out. Mom had her second round of Chemo this morning. Her hair started coming out in patches last night. She is terribly upset about that. Can you blame her?
My trip was stressful cause she was so on edge about everything. SHe broke down several times about how she feels such a LOSS of control. My dad was being a TOTAL asshole...not towards her, but to me. If I had stayed another day, I certainly would have said a few things that I would regret later. He's never hurt me the way he did this Christmas.

I have tons to do here....Yankee candles here I come. I need good smells filling my house. I need warmth and relaxation after I unload my car and feed my babies.....

I hate that I have less than a week and I am back at work~

Sunday, December 24, 2006


Hello to has been a busy week for me. It's Christmas eve and I have just finished dinner with Mom and Dad. I cooked was given a break. = )

I got here Tuesday afternoon....not without stopping in Montgomery to see Aunt and Uncle V. They are the ones selling. They actually had a couple coming to look at their land and home that afternoon. They have decided to move to Jackson Al, to be closer to their oldest daughter. Again, I am sad. I feel like the whole family structure is changing around me. 2006 SUCKSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

I spent Wed with "D". We had lunch, shopped a bit and she did my hair. She's the bridezilla. She has calmed down a bit...but only because she has so much else happening this week and next. She took me to see their new home (they close on it in 2 weeks). It is lovely. It's new. Brick 4 bedroom, 2 bath, granite counter tops, tiled fireplace...I took pics...I'll post a few when I get home and can transfer from my camera. I am happy for her!!! I just hope we both make it thru the wedding 11 months from now~

Thursday mom and I spent the day together driving thru the city that care forgot. It is truly amazing to me to see the 'MESS" our Gov't has left for the city to pick up piece by piece one by one. We have a military and reserves that NEED to be here in the U.S.~ rebuilding our own homes instead of losing lives overseas. Their are still tarps on roof tops from a year and a half ago....houses are still being gutted, tons and tons of debris and housing remnant's on the sides of buildings......

OK my quick rant. (Send prayers to all the New Orleanians STILL living in a FEMA trailor. )

Merry Christmas to all and to all a GOOD NIGHT!!!!

Monday, December 18, 2006

What size? AA or AAA or hell even C

Well, I have taken many a deep breath over this weekend. I am feeling a tad bit less overwhelmed and frustrated. I must admit that it helps that right now I should have 27 kids in a classroom whom 1/2 are BD (behavior disorder) and the other half are truly disadvantaged in reading or lack any drive or determination to do anything but get into trouble and be class clowns. (This is my 4th period class)
Feeling totally BUMMED...My aunt and Uncle that live right outside of Montgomery...have put their farm up for sale. He's got over 100 acres....cattle farming. I am so bummed! I have show ya'll several pics of their place on here..along with their puppy. I hate that he feels like moving...and I HATE that I haven't spent more time out in his wide open spaces.

I have decided to go home tomorrow. Yesterday I arranged some gifts to take come. I spoke to a couple of friends bridezilla too. I feel a bit relieved on that one. Greg came over for a few hours. We cuddled up n the couch and he listened to me rant and rave. "Girl, you gotta let some of this just roll off your back"...I said, yes, I know I am WOUND a bit tight these last few weeks. Friday night was my breaking point. I gave him 2 of the shirts...he really liked both. I'll bring the other two back when I get back from N.O.

I have been horny as hell these last 2 weeks. A girlfriend here thinks it's my emotional side wanting to be close to someone for all the pressure that I am feeling~ Well....still no I guess the pressure and loneliness is mounting. I mean batteries can only do so much! Hell, I oughta have stock in duracell by now.

Sunday, December 17, 2006


This is totally how I feel about life right now. I had a busy day. I spent 2 hrs in Sprint. I spent almost 40 minutes in Sam's trying to get my dad some flavored water to take home. Traffic any where was a total BITCH.

I am really feeling like I am being torn in 15 different directions. I was going to drive home today to see mom. I realized by the end of the week I had to have a couple of days OFF! (With all of your prayers---she has responded well to this first round of chemo) I need it for my own sanity! Well, one of my oldest friends is getting married NEXT OCTOBER, and I swear she has called me 15 times this week about getting a damn dress. Ok,,.hello the wedding is in 11 months. The bridal store she has selected isn't located in my town. She knows I will be home with in the week...but is acting like she will have a fucking stroke if I don't get on the phone with David's Bridal and give them my credit card. She has picked out the dress...All i need to do is go for a fitting and PAY the woman. She leaves me a message today..."I know you are ignoring me, just tell me you don't want to be in the wedding". Ok I left her a message 3 days ago that told her HOW MUCH shit I have going on. She is still riding my ass. (Choral concerts, PTA meetings, WORK)
Second, I talked to mom today. She apparently had the next 2 weeks pretty much planned out for me. She was counting on me spending EVERY DAY of my vacation at home. My thoughts were, I would go this week and stay til next Wed.. I would help her do household stuff....laundry, some cooking, taking care of kitties, garbage, cleaning out fridge n freezer, shopping and errands for her. Well, my dad is working this week, so I thought it would give us some one on one time and give dad a break. He's got next week off. She was disappointed with me on the phone. ( i told her I had to have a few days for me during my 2 week supposed to be vacation time)
She calls to inform me my aunt plans on coming over tomorrow and wants to work in the yard....and bring 2 of her friends to clean my gutters. OK guys...tomorrow is a SAINTS game that they will actually SHOW me here....and it was my "I REFUSE TO GET OUT OF MY PJ"s" day. I need to do dishes, finish wrapping gifts, laundry, pack, pay bills....IT WAS MY ALONE DAY)...Well, my aunt hasn't called me, cause when i left her house this week...I left in a sad state. Don't get me wrong she is a wonderful lady, but a VERY harsh critic. She really dishes out what she thinks...and usually they are criticisms....from the highlights in my hair, to how a pair of pants are not flattering. I need to do better with managing my money, I should "do this" for a guy I am dating...
Then there is Linda. I LOVE LINDA!!! She is my oldest friend...we will be leaning on each other quite a bit...both of our mom's have breast cancer. Our mom's are friends...But Linda lives next door to hers. (she see's her DAILY) She is wanting to go sprint around the French Quarter while I am home. OK, yes, I could use the night out...but right now I feel like MOM Is my priority and gets first dibs. I wanna make EVERYONE Happy and I am losing my fucking mind in the thought of trying to do it all.

It doesn't help that I am 36 and still single. (holidays make being single tough)---except we don't have awful inlaws to deal with) Right now is when I need a life partner to be my rock...and tell me what I am feeling is normal. All I can do is my best, but remember..I do not want to LIVE with regrets with my mom...but in the same notion, I have to take time for myself.


Friday, December 15, 2006


Has every one but me found their G spot?

Good Pussy Health Precautions
* Avoid lubes with sugar, colorings and flavors in them. Glycerin/glycerol is a sugar -- read the lube's ingredients, because yes Virginia, Astroglide contains sugar. Sugar feeds yeast: think about it. Nine times out of ten when I worked in sex toy retail this was the cause of most women's irritation.

* And that means no whipped cream, chocolate or pussy sundaes, either. Sugar caution also applies to well-meaning lovers who go down on you with a cough drop or mint in her/his mouth.

* Don't get oil in there either -- oils are difficult to flush out of the vagina, though silicone lubes are fine (even though they feel a lot like oil). Mmmm, silicone lube (one brand recently tested and passed FDA regulations for safety). Try to use pussy friendly water-based lubes.

* Always pee after sex, even if it's sex with yourself. If you have frequent bladder infections, this might be your solution.

* Avoid harsh soaps with intense scent or a high pH, like Ivory and 'deodorant' soaps. Use glycerin soaps if you think the soap might be a factor.

* Don't douche. Just don't. Douching kills all the good flora and fauna that keeps your pussy healthy.

* Drink plenty of water. Ever drink lots of coffee and no water and have your pee sting? That's your urethra (G-spot area) getting irritated and pleading for water.

* Is your lover touching your pussy with clean hands? Don't ever be afraid to have them use a glove or ask them to wash their hands.

* Never go from back door to front (anus to vagina).

* What's your sex toy made of? When in doubt, try to use silicone sex toys (or metal, glass or Pyrex), or cover your toy with a condom. Keep condoms handy so you don't have to hassle with washing a toy when you don't want to get out of bed.

* If you've been using a jelly toy with no irritation but suddenly start experiencing irritation, time for a new toy (or start using it with a condom). Jelly toys are porous and can retain bacteria even after washing.
* * * * * * *

Checkin in

Morning~ I thought puppy here was cute...and I just wanted to check in on my readers...see if you feel and smell ok today....
Well, AMEN it is my last day and 2 wks off . I am truly wiped out! I need some down time...some me time*** I have decided I am not going home until Monday. I need to have a day off and just rest in my own home, do laundry, go thru mail, love on my kitties and SLEEP!
I spoke to mom last nigt she was totally ok with it. After all my dad is off Sat/Sun and works all of next week. So I'll be there with her next week if she needs me for anything. Her next Chemo treatment is Dec 27.
Greg called last night, I didn't answer. He said he wanted to wish me a safe trip home today. He asked that I call him when I get on the road. Well, I'm not sure if I will or not. I have made up my mind 2 if not 3 of those shirts are going back. I was feeling generous and in the Christmas spirit when I bought them. I know finances are not his strong suit right now. I also thought I could help build up the wardrobe some... I mean the ex-wife is supposed to be paying him child support and is NOT consistant with it. you all agree several or ALL of them should go back to the store.????
I did just find out James Gandolfini is the head of Bacchus this year. (I love the Soprano's) Bacchus is the HUGE Sunday night parade before Mardi gras. There are 4 parades definately worth seeing in Nawlins....Endymion (sat night), Bacchus (sun night), Orpheous (mon night--it's Harry Connick Jr.'s parade) and REX which rolls at 10 a.m. om Mardi Gras day down Canal Street. The weekend b/f is sometimes better than the actually day cause you get the locals not the tourists.
Have a nice many don't post over Sat n Sun...BOOO HOOOO !

Thursday, December 14, 2006


Alrighty, again you can post a comment anonymously. However, I like the BEta Blogger better. It has more features and allows me to post more least pictures are added faster..And I am actually writing this on my planning this morning~~~

Well, I managed to get a flu shot yesterday after work. My insurance pays for it. My arm is paying for it this morning. All of my children decided to squeeze my left arm as they hugged me this morning. UGHHHHHHHHH...can i say OUCH!
After all I am such a baby when it comes to needles....

I am kinda disappointed with the G man. I called him at work Tues wanting to know if he had plans right after work, cause I had to be at school for the PTA meeting and had about 30 minutes to kill from when he gets off of work. He told me "No" don't come by the store. He had to meet with the store owner at another location. Well he was kinda rude on the phone, at least I felt put off. After all I had just spent an hour at JcPenny shopping for him for clothes. Well, I found 4 items and couldn't decide which one, so I got all 4. I spent 75 bucks. YES I AM A NUT! (not trying to get one or two) Just acting like a damn NUT > = ( ~
I figured that he would end up liking 2 of is a fleece zip up basic black...the other was a pull over super soft cotton. I know I am safe with those two, but i wanted to add a bit of color. So I grabbed a green mock turtle neck (he'll wear a turtle neck--but not a button down--and women are picky???) the other is a blue--(to match those crystal blue eyes) pull over with 3 buttons on top.....I did pretty well for 75 bucks.
Anyway...he didn't call after we spoke Tues....he didn't call or email last night...So what are your thoughts???

I am not sure if I see a future with/in him. He has a few qualities I really like....he LOVES his family...LOVES his daughter...and seems stable in his job. He loves music we definitely share that common interest. I think he'd be loyal in a relationship.
He is definitely a warm a fuzzy kind of guy. =)
On the flip side...I wish he had finished college...wish he wasn't a smoker....I am more materialistic than he is and that may cause financial "arguements" down the road.....He calls himself a "NON CONFORMIST"...and with his clothing don't we discussed this weekend...hmmmmmm. He's not a fan of organized religion. He's Christian but not a church goer, although he was brought up in one and is Glad his daughter is involved with a church group...his parents take her.

Confused...I may bitch later today about another topic....but let me make test copies......

Wednesday, December 13, 2006


anonymous people can post where ya at?????

Tuesday, December 12, 2006


So which of my Law and Order guys do you prefer????


I'm curious who ya'll find more attractive and why????

I made it home amen...It is drizzling rain outside..I wish I could go out and play in it with either of these men...Their are two other men that make me crazy....but I'll see who the winner is on this vote.

The year is 1906. One hundred years ago. What a difference a century makes ! Here are some of the U.S. statistics for the Year 1906
The average life expectancy in the U.S. was 47

A three-minute call from Denver
to New York City
cost eleven dollars.

There were only 8,000 cars in the U.S. ,
and only 144 miles
of paved roads.

The maximum speed limit in most cities was 10 mph.
Alabama, Mississippi , Iowa , and Tennessee
were each more
heavily populated than California .

With a mere 1.4 million people,
California was only the 21st
most populous state in the Union .

The tallest structure in the world was the Eiffel Tower !

The average wage in the US . was 22 cents per hour.

The average U.S. worker made between $200 and $400 per year .

A competent accountant could expect to earn $2000 per year, a dentist $2,500 per year,
a veterinarian between $1,500
and $4,000 per year,
and a mechanical engineer about $5,000 per year.

More than 95 percent of all births in the U.S. took place at HOME.

Ninety percent of all U.S. doctors
they attended so-called medical schools,
many of which were condemned in the press
the government
as "sub-standard."

Sugar cost four cents a pound.

Eggs were fourteen cents a dozen.

Coffee was fifteen cents a pound.

Most women only washed their hair
once a month,
and used borax
or egg yolks for shampoo. (EE-EWW)

Canada passed a law that prohibited poor people from
entering into their country for any reason.

The Five leading causes of death in the U.S. were:
1. Pneumonia and influenza 2. Tuberculosis 3. Diarrhea 4. Heart disease 5. Stroke
The American flag had 45 stars. Arizona , Oklahoma , New Mexico , Hawaii , and
Alaska hadn't been admitted to the Union yet.
The population of Las Vegas , Nevada , was only 30 !!!!
Crossword puzzles,
canned beer,
and ice tea
hadn't been invented yet.

There was no Mother's Day
or Father's Day.

Two out of every 10 U.S. adults couldn't read or write.

Only 6 percent of all Americans had graduated from high school.

Marijuana, heroin, and morphine
were all available over
the counter
at the local corner drugstores.
Pharmacists said,
"Heroin clears the complexion, > gives buoyancy to the mind,
regulates the stomach and bowels,
and is, in fact,
a perfect guardian of health."
( Shocking ? )

Eighteen percent of households in the U.S.
had at least one full-time servant or domestic help.
There were about 230 reported murders
in the ENTIRE U.S.A. !

Now having read this
try to imagine what it may be like
in another 100 years.


We have a PTA meeting tonight, and I don't wanna go!! I had such a difficult time getting out of bed this morning..........I'll run out of here at 4ish and have to be back at 7:00... It's mandatory for us = (

I'll run to the mall and see if I can find a shirt I like that I think he'll like....You gotta read yesterdays post...sniff sniff no one visited it yet. MEOW

Mom started chemo yesterday. She sounded ok on the phone last night....but we'll see how she feels today. We all appreciate your prayers~

Bad joke but I cracked a we will see what you do.........

A lady walked into a Lexus dealership just to browse. Suddenly she> spotted the most beautiful car that she had ever seen and walked over> to inspect it. As she bent forward to feel the fine leather upholstery, an> unexpected little fart escaped her.> Embarrassed, she anxiously looked around to see if anyone had noticed> and hoped a sales person didn't pop up right now. But, as she turned back,> there, standing next to her, is a salesman.> With a pleasant smile he greeted her, "Good day, Madame. How may> we help you today?"> Trying to maintain an air of sophistication and acting as though nothing> had happened, she smiles back and asked, Sir, what is the price of this> lovely vehicle?"> Still smiling pleasantly, he replied, "Madame, I'm very sorry to say that> if you farted just by touching it, you are going to shit when you hear the> price.

YOU have to read yesterday's in order to comment.............

Monday, December 11, 2006

i'm back~

Well, it's Monday and as well all know Mondays SUCK. We have extra meetings at work and they call for extra time and PUNISHMENT for all of us.

I did however manage to bring my school gifts up here for my co-workers, secretaires and Principal and Asst principal. They all got N'awlins goodies....cocktail, remouolade, or seafood sauce in a jar. Assorted coffees (Bannana's Foster, Pralines and Creme, Mardi Gras blend), I found the cutest soaps shaped in crawfish, crabs, shrimp), Mardi Gras dip ( served it at a LAnguage Arts last year and it was a hit) and various seafood mixes (gumbo, red beans and rice, BBQ shrimp, Shrimp creole) and Louisiana seasonings to use in place of salt and pepper.... and some awesome caramel popcorn with chocolate drizzles. ( I also got a few pralines (pronounced praw leans)....

Sat I had lunch with Tommy and Jeff at the Market...I had Gumbo and boiled shrimp....Yummy.
After lunch my aunt took me to Ft. Benning. = ) I went to get Lancome lipstick and lip liner...I left with a Sarah Jessica Parker perfume set....My lipstick and liner....Estee Lauder Magnascopic mascara...Elizabeth Arden makeup gift set....a hat for my mom she may want after loosing her hair.....Estee Lauder moisturizer gift set....Prada perfume/Lotion gift set and Vera Wang perfume gift set. I spent well over 400 bucks. I needed the makeup...and wanted the perfume....Oh yes, I also got Victoria Secret Pear glace body scrub and Yankee Candle tea lights in Cranberry Manderin. I spent my January pay check. It's just not a regular thing for her to take I always feel like I need to stock up!

Sat afternoon Greg called and wanted to know if we could do something that evening after his daughter dance recital. The only thing I had planned was getting Christmas gifts together for friends and co-workers. He offerd to help, so I said Yes. He called and wanted to pick me up dinner somewhere, but I wasn't hungry. It was sweet though. I had a tough time getting my fire place going...he volunteered his "red neck services" to start the fire. He says...I'll be right back~ I need to go get the gasoline out of my car. My dumb ass believed him and said "thats not necessary". He busted out laughing. I felt like an idiot....He helped me bag stuff and tie ribbons and on gifts. I told him about mom and he was VERY Supportive. I was pleased. He also knew that I'd be gone for awhile so he wanted us to spend some time together. We just cuddled up on the couch with the fire and talked for a few hours. He's a sweet guy. He shaved off that long go-tee (yeah)...I like a go-tee...but not the ZZ top look...his wasn't that bad but you get the idea.....
He spent the night.....we slept all curled up together. He is definately a warm and fuzzy when it comes to affection. I was lucky he was there actually. My ADT alarm went off at 5:00a.m. It scared the hell out of me. I jumped up, he did too...He went outside and checked all around my house while ADT called me. I grabbed my gun. I felt alot safer that he was there. It has never gone off in the almost 3 yrs I have been in that house. We think it was the whipping wind that caused a sensor to go off.....But i couldn't go back to sleep....he stayed all morning, we just goofed off. We watched my church on TV that morning. We met 2 of my friends at a mexican place for lunch~ It was my idea so I paid. He met Tommy and Angel. He was SOOOO quiet. Kinda nervous like~ I haven't talked to him since lunch yesterday.

I think I am gonna go shop for a pull over or a sweater for him. He needs clothes! He is a total non conformist...He doesn't like button downs or V necks. He will wear a turtle neck or tshirts....So I am gonna check out a few places afterwork..... Am I out of my mind???? OR do I seem too pushy??? I am just REALLY comfy with's cool..He did make progress...he switched from Marlboro reds to Marlboro lights...and he bought some listerine strips to pop in his mouth before he even thought about kissing me....

Thursday, December 07, 2006

I'll huff and I'll puff

Thought for Today:

"The happiness of your life depends on the quality of your thoughts."

-- Marcus Antoninus

G called but I was in a funk I didn't answer the phone. I was supposed to go to a faculty party tonight, but just didn't feel SOCIAL. I have too much on my mind. I'm totally selfish right? After all it was at Hannah's mom's house~ I just feel like I am trying too fucking hard to put on a smiling face, when I don't feel a bit like smiling.

I am feeling kinda numb...Mom called and no results on the heart test yet. They have her scheduled for surgery to insert a port tomorrow morning at 7. She will be at the hospital all day. My dad is taking off (THANK GOD). Mom is pretty upset that a doc didn't call her with results to proceed in the a.m. So she is just going to show up.

Does anyone have a facial moisturizer they really like??? I have been TURNED on to Oil of Olay with SHea Butter for dry skin..OMG it is the bomb! It is so soft~ I am in love. However for somereason this season my face is becoming dry in the T-zone and usually I am OILY.....I manage to get Vitamin E soap from the "BODY SHOP" when I am in Louisiana. I tried some moisturizers, but I haven't found "the One".

One more question~ Where does everyone go over the weekends? It's so rare for people to post or to comment?????

Wednesday, December 06, 2006


Well BG tagged me...and I'm not sure I can come up with 6 things you don't know about me....but I'll try.

1. My first job in life was Taco Bell. I got it after my freshman yr in college, cause I wanted my own place. (Loved mom and dad but FREEDOM was so appealing) I dealt with the drive thru....evening hours...Louisiana drunk people...but my friends never went hungry!

2. 90% of the guys I have dated since I moved to Ga have been from the internet.

3. If I am stuck waiting in an office of some type (doc, dentist, investments) I will count the squares on the floor, along a desk, or on the ceiling.

4. I think size matters! It isn't the ONLY Pleasing factor, but it can be too big or too small.

5. I am addicted to HIGH priced makeup. One of my college roommates worked for Lancome and Lauder...and now All I buy is Lancome and Lauder.....I like their products. I can be an absolute brat! ( Ilike a eyeshadow color MAC makes, and a mascara DEfinicils puts out.)

6. Two of my kitty cats like to drink out of my bathroom sink each morning as I am getting ready for work. I'll get up wash the face, brush the teeth and then next thing I know kitty usually whisper in my the sink trying to lick the faucet itself.

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

Can you guess which dwarf I feel like today?

Well, yesterday was pretty CRAPPY.

I was worried about mom's visit with the Oncologist yesterday afternoon. I had the school Choral concert to attend and frankly wasn't up to being a social butterfly.

Mom's news: she is having a heart test Thursday to see if her heart can withstand the HEAVY dose of Chemo they want to give her next week. The doc she saw siad she has a very fast moving cancer and it needs to be treated immediately. If the heart test is ok, he scheduled an outpatient "port" installation. They go in just below your collar bone and open up the size of a quarter in order to give Chemo and other meds. This also allows for blood draw at later dates... The nurses told her she would lose her hair during this treatment. I am scared for her.
I couldn't sleep any last night, after getting in late from the chorus concert and then getting the phone call an hour later....I'm taking something to help me sleep tonight and getting in bed.

Again prayers are welcomed. Thank you!

Do you see the pressure single people feel in the real dating world!
Greg is home sick today, flu like stuff. That's all I need with everything else I got going on. I just talked to him. I don't think we will see each other until the new year seriously. Maybe it's better that way~ I'm in such a FUNK with my mom...I mean I'd like the support that I think he could offer, but how do you tell someone you have just started to date that your mom was just diagnosed?
I just need a magic pill.
Why does it seem so much easier to talk to strangers via blog these days?

Sunday, December 03, 2006


Well, yes Barn Goddess last night was date night. Greg and I met at one of the local Mexican places for dinner. He cut his hair ok almost shaved it since we met on Monday. I was bummed.
= ( Dinner went fine...The waiter put us in a corner and all I could see was the window outside and a mexican waiter who wanted to dance quietly in the corner behind Greg. It made for an interesting evening. We were both nervous and it showed. He was fidgety and I didn't eat much...usually I tear up the cheese dip. He told me a bit more about his daughter, turn out my mom and Alyssa (his 4yr old) have the same birthday. She'll be 5 in January. He had about 25 pics on his phone of her. She's cute!!! He's a proud papa and it shows.

After dinner we went to Circuit City, he wanted to watch The DiVinci Code. So he bought it, I would have rented buy hey, it's his money. He followed me to my house and his words were " Wow this is really PHAT! I mean seriously, it's PHAT." Ok ya'll he's 4 yrs younger, but my kids use that term, I don't. Do I sound like an old lady yet? We sat on the love seat and talked for an hour or so, he put the movie in and just snuggled up with me. He is very affectionate. It took him about 30 minutes after holding my hand to kiss me. It was nice. ABout 1/2 into the movie he grabbed my hand and wanted to dance in the middle of my living room. I was a bit surprised. He's a musician remember and plays hard core stuff...Anyway, he just wanted to be playful I guess. I was caught off guard. He's a football size guy at 6'4. We danced for probably 30 minutes...

Converstion wasn't a factor. His mom is retired 25 yrs from Civil Service, Dad retired from the Army. He has a younger brother who's married and lives in Tennessee. HE is REALLY close with his family. I like that he cares about them so much. The ex wife really screwed his from what info he has shared with me. It's been 2 yrs since the divorce. He works and works, and spends as much time as possible with ALyssa. They live together. I'll see him again, althoughI'm not sure when, Alyssa has a dance recital Saturday early evening and he seems proud. He doesn't have a day off until next Sunday.

Mom goes to another Doc tomorrow afternoon, I'll have more info tomorrow night. I guess my family will know more about our Christmas plans after her news. She has about made up her ming she want to get treatment in Houston at MD Anderson. I may be there for Christmas. I didn't tell Greg any of this last night, I didn't see it as suitable 1st date material....

Please let Moday go fast and PAINFREE~

Friday, December 01, 2006

sick leave

OK. I'm up. The last few weeks I have had the TOUGHEST time sleeping and staying asleep if I ever fall alseep.
I finally got out of bed after lying there thinking about lesson plans for the next week. GRRRRR

I shopped a bit after work today. Bath and Body. I picked up some wall flower refills and some caramel body wash....I'm clean, and I smell good, but damn if I can sleep! I watched Ugly Betty tonight, her boss is a hottie.

I may be going to M.D. Anderson a cancer center in Houston with my mom. She asked my aunt to go, but I know my aunt isn't up to such a big trip physically unless ABSOLUTELY necessary. MOm has another doc appt on Monday. If he gives her a referral, I know she'll try to get in. It would well be worth the trip. I am not sure if I should take my 2 weeks saved for sick leave, or leave with out pay not knowing how long I would/could be gone..... thoughts??? My aunt seems to think she may be able to get in by Christmas. Keep saying prayers, they are so important.