LAST WILL

"Last night my sister and I were sitting in the den and I said to her, 'I never want to live in a vegetative state, dependent on some machine and fluids from a bottle to keep me alive. That would be no quality of life at all, If that ever happens, just pull the plug.' So she got up, unplugged the computer, and threw out my wine. She's such a bitch!" Maxine

The concert was great! Jake is such a HOttie!!! He has a hit "YEE HAW" and closed the show with it and a young girl from the audience, she must be 5 yrs old. It was the cutest thing to hear her sing yee haw for the audience.

Sugarland was awesome. I wish I had Jennifer Nettles energy and her voice. She has a set of lungs on her. They did a couple of cover tunes that surprised me...They closed the show with all 3 acts coming out.

Well unfortunately, I have a sinus head from the depths of hell. I was miserable last night and this morning. I am taking meds...but tonight is our school Christmas party and the 6th grade teachers are the one catering.SO i spent a couple of hours yesterday cooking 4 pots of jambalaya--chicken, shrimp and sausage.....R is coming with me which really excites me.

He finally decided he doesn't want to see other people.... = ) Ya'll I really dig him.

I feel like I get to show him off!!!!! Did I tell you Auburn University called him and he has an interview set up early January?? I'm excited for him because it will be a step up and more money and a more prestigious college. On the down side, I am not sure what that means as far as travel time...it's a 40 minute drive over there and if it's 5 days a week, it will get old soon.

It's FRIDAY!!! WAHOOOOOO Can I scream any louder??????? My kiddies at work have lost their minds and I am soon to follow.

A dear friend is having a medical procedure today and needs your prayers. So please send them.

On a positive note (Yep---twice in one week I am positive...I am going for a record! )

The professor emailed me three times yesterday and called me after teaching his class last night. I was on the phone for almost 3 hours. There is not a lack for conversation or for topics.

So far so good. He wanted me to go to a car race tonight. We are having a school dance to help out our PTA and lots of my kids want me here. So tomorrow he's coming over to watch the Alabama Vs. LSU game at 5:00. I suppose I need to get some munchies in....Suggestions?????

He's sweet and flirty. He's really bright. We have some common interests such as education, football, photography and travel. He's also OCD. So I hope that won't interfere..as I am a total OCD personality. He hugged me the other night after dinner. I kissed him on the cheek. It was sweet.

When he called he informed me that he had talked to a coworker about our date yesterday. Funny because, I spoke to 2 of my co workers about him. He judges the National History Day

projects at my school and has for several years. It is really odd that we have never come in contact with each other before now. Two of the teachers I really like gave him thumbs up and spoke highly of his intellectual capability. One of the had him tutor her daughters in high school and college.

Ok...I don't want to get my hopes too high...but he's definitely got some possibilities. I haven't said that in quite sometime when it comes to dating and men.

Well, I am feeling kinda good today. I had an Internet date last night. I think it went really well. We stayed at the restaurant 3 1/2 hours just talking. He is working on his Ph.D. He is a professor at a local college and has recently applied at Auburn. He'll find out in March.

He's attractive....from a small town in Mississippi and enjoys cars. He's divorced and has two girls...They are still in Miss. So his hometown is about an hour from my parents. It's a small world. I enjoyed the conversation and look forward to another date. Wish me luck.
I am not getting my heart set.....but he certainly has several of the qualities that I want in a mate. So we'll just wait and see....

Back to work I go. I get kids in 20 minutes....

Nope Not getting married EVER the date was pleasant, but WAY TOO MUCH BAGGAGE.

Sweet guy, poilte and eager to please. WAY to much info for a first date. Yet another disappointment.

I am still itching from my rash. I am making a dermatologit appointment this week. It's been with me over a week. I soaked in an oatmeal bath this evening. I got about 6 yrs of relief. (yeah)

It's 1:19 a.m. and my alarm will be going off in 5 hours.

18 more days of school for me.

A chance to breathe while sitting at a red light

You look around reflecting on your life…

You can run a red light,

give up at a red light

You break the mold when running through the tolls

Speeding through your whole life"

---Johnny Lang

CAN I SAY OH SHIT!

My stupid butt decides to go get a manicure at 7 oclock this evening...Mind you I had already been to walmart and Sams right after work. But I got to thinking tomorrow night I have an award ceremony for my aunt and Sat day I have a date with a guy from Eharmony. Friday night the nail place will be BUSY...let me run over there because I will NOT have time tomorrow after work before the thingy for my aunt. Well as I am turning left, a lady runs a red light and hits me as I swerve and slam on the brakes. Ya'll she scared the HELL out of me. Yes, it all happened so fast, I just freaked out. I called 911 before I got out of my car. Luckily, another woman was stopped at the red light and saw all of it happen. She said, There is a God. He just saved both of your lives. She got out of her car and talked to me until I calmed down. Her daughter was in the back seat. The lady that hit me could barely speak English. We stood around for 2 hours. She got a ticket and I have a court date a week from Friday.

I gotta get rid of all this pent up anger somehow. I wish I had a more positive outlet. But nope, it's usually friends and food....right now I have the school secretary calling to check on me...and blog buddies...and one friend T here.

I had a real disappointment with internet J. He just didn;t bother to call Friday, so we could make Sat plans. I called, left a message but no call back. How can you go from 5-10 emails a day and 3 phone calls to ZIP. No ladies, nothing has happened to the jack ass. I just can't find a decent guy to save my life or what is left of my mind.

I am surrounded by dicks in this life.

Aren't these adorable? A friend sent them to me..... I'll be stuck at a Drug Free rally ALL MORNING Tuesday...UGHHHHHHHHHH
I have grades due this week and I have to make plans for the sub next week. WOW, I feel a bit over loaded.

T took me to a newer place called Ben's Chop house for dinner tonight. It was YUMMY. Pricey, but YUMMY!!!!!!

Thanks for all the comments and feedback on Mondays post. I hope John turns out to be as special to me as my "first Love" John.

I can dream...maybe hallucinating....but dreaming all the same.

Hope you have a decent Tuesday!!!!

The next time *A* is over here, I'll see if I can take a pic and let ya see how handsome he really is~

Well....everybody liked Alex, other wise known as *A*. Of course he is the one that is totally unavailable.

Pic 1 is John in Savannah, the one I am excited about ....He has the Chemistry degree and has lots of good qualities...but we haven't mey face to face yet. = (

Pic 2 is *A* my regular readers know my moments with him.

Pic 3 is Greg. We dated and he's all mixed up inside after the divorce. I told him during our talk last night how cocky he was/is. I know it's all an act, he is a teddy bear inside. He apologized and really shared his feelings~ He wants us to start dating again with a blank slate. HE really told me tons of feelings last night. I was hmmmm, well, I was surprised to see such a genuine apology.

Most of you thought John would be a nice guy. I get that feeling too.
Alex is just Yummy...again that is NOT a good pic.
Greg, several comments thought he'd be a cocky ass. Funny, cause he can be......

Alleluia

I am feeling much better today. A came over last night and I feel like a new woman. I'm going for the fireplace, a yankee candle, a warm blanket and hot chocolate.....

I did break down and get pedi and mani yesterday, much cheaper than a massage......

N' Da Playoffs

Morning~ I am just getting home from dinner and drinks with T and A. He took us out. I had a shot and a couple of cosmo's. I am not feeling any pain.
I am however, looking forward to tomorrow when I get to SEE my Saints in action their last game of the season. My guys made it to the play offs....( I AM SOOOOO PROUD)!!!!! I really hope they win tomorrow afternoon... Wish them luck!

Well, I had my friend with benefits over last night. It had been almost 6 months, and I was losing my mind. He's so sweet. It was an enjoyable evening for all.

The G man hasn't benn calling~ he knew I was in N.O. buts still he should have called. He's got alot of pent up hostility. I have figured out if it's towards life, work or even the ex. I guess it's more macho if a guy shows anger and a gal shows sadness?????

I am glad Saddam was hung and that the U.S. were not the ones to do it!

No New Yrs plans for me except the game~ all the bars are closed here~ they open at midnight. T bought me a bottle of champagne...not that I need it. But I guess he figures just in case....he's really depriving a lucky gal out of a relationship. He is either scared of commitment...or has intimacy issues. He has the best heart!

What size? AA or AAA or hell even C

Well, I have taken many a deep breath over this weekend. I am feeling a tad bit less overwhelmed and frustrated. I must admit that it helps that right now I should have 27 kids in a classroom whom 1/2 are BD (behavior disorder) and the other half are truly disadvantaged in reading or lack any drive or determination to do anything but get into trouble and be class clowns. (This is my 4th period class)

Feeling totally BUMMED...My aunt and Uncle that live right outside of Montgomery...have put their farm up for sale. He's got over 100 acres....cattle farming. I am so bummed! I have show ya'll several pics of their place on here..along with their puppy. I hate that he feels like moving...and I HATE that I haven't spent more time out in his wide open spaces.

I have decided to go home tomorrow. Yesterday I arranged some gifts to take come. I spoke to a couple of friends bridezilla too. I feel a bit relieved on that one. Greg came over for a few hours. We cuddled up n the couch and he listened to me rant and rave. "Girl, you gotta let some of this just roll off your back"...I said, yes, I know I am WOUND a bit tight these last few weeks. Friday night was my breaking point. I gave him 2 of the shirts...he really liked both. I'll bring the other two back when I get back from N.O.

I have been horny as hell these last 2 weeks. A girlfriend here thinks it's my emotional side wanting to be close to someone for all the pressure that I am feeling~ Well....still no sex...so I guess the pressure and loneliness is mounting. I mean batteries can only do so much! Hell, I oughta have stock in duracell by now.

dating

Well, yes Barn Goddess last night was date night. Greg and I met at one of the local Mexican places for dinner. He cut his hair ok almost shaved it since we met on Monday. I was bummed.
= ( Dinner went fine...The waiter put us in a corner and all I could see was the window outside and a mexican waiter who wanted to dance quietly in the corner behind Greg. It made for an interesting evening. We were both nervous and it showed. He was fidgety and I didn't eat much...usually I tear up the cheese dip. He told me a bit more about his daughter, turn out my mom and Alyssa (his 4yr old) have the same birthday. She'll be 5 in January. He had about 25 pics on his phone of her. She's cute!!! He's a proud papa and it shows.

After dinner we went to Circuit City, he wanted to watch The DiVinci Code. So he bought it, I would have rented buy hey, it's his money. He followed me to my house and his words were " Wow this is really PHAT! I mean seriously, it's PHAT." Ok ya'll he's 4 yrs younger, but my kids use that term, I don't. Do I sound like an old lady yet? We sat on the love seat and talked for an hour or so, he put the movie in and just snuggled up with me. He is very affectionate. It took him about 30 minutes after holding my hand to kiss me. It was nice. ABout 1/2 into the movie he grabbed my hand and wanted to dance in the middle of my living room. I was a bit surprised. He's a musician remember and plays hard core stuff...Anyway, he just wanted to be playful I guess. I was caught off guard. He's a football size guy at 6'4. We danced for probably 30 minutes...

Converstion wasn't a factor. His mom is retired 25 yrs from Civil Service, Dad retired from the Army. He has a younger brother who's married and lives in Tennessee. HE is REALLY close with his family. I like that he cares about them so much. The ex wife really screwed his from what info he has shared with me. It's been 2 yrs since the divorce. He works and works, and spends as much time as possible with ALyssa. They live together. I'll see him again, althoughI'm not sure when, Alyssa has a dance recital Saturday early evening and he seems proud. He doesn't have a day off until next Sunday.

Mom goes to another Doc tomorrow afternoon, I'll have more info tomorrow night. I guess my family will know more about our Christmas plans after her news. She has about made up her ming she want to get treatment in Houston at MD Anderson. I may be there for Christmas. I didn't tell Greg any of this last night, I didn't see it as suitable 1st date material....

Please let Moday go fast and PAINFREE~

Tuesday

Well, I survived Monday. Amen.
Our after school meeting yesterday was hosted by 2 of the gym teachers. They decided that ALL of the faculty would be doing Tae Bo in the gym after school yesterday. Now some of these teachers have been teaching for 28+ years...CAn you imagine the possibilities?? The postivie aspect was the teacher here I think is a GREAT GUY...(married--so totally off limits) was in the line in front of me~ I was able to capture every wiggle. hehehehe

Second, I found a couple of Hope stories on line yesterday, printed them and mailed them to mom. Her doc is supposed to be calling with test results within 48 hours of yesterday morning. Please Lord, do not let it have spread to the bones. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE

Third, I went by the Hardware store yesterday after work meetings and running by my aunts (she was having a GUMBO party- she got some good stuff while in Louisiana and brought it back Sat). His name is Greg. He's a perfect size guy. He's 6'4, brown hair, and piercing blue eyes. I went in with the excuse to get a key made...well, mom took my extra one when she was here a month ago...and he and I started talking on line about a month ago. He made it for me for free. He's a very likeable fella. We chatted for a bit, he handles contract sales for for the hardware store. He has a 4 yr old daughter. He's 4 yrs younger than I am. He's divorced and has been for 2 years. He has sole custody of his daughter. He is also a musician. (I have always had a weak spot for rock and rollers) Well we hung out for about 1/2 hour, yep he needed that cigarette (ugh--and I'm a former smoker)...But we'll see what I can do about that.
As I was leaving he reached over hugged me and kissed me on the cheek. It was actually kinda sweet. I was pleased. We are having dinner Wed at a local mexican place so we can get better acquainted. I can hope......

Alrighty, a conference with a parent calls and papers need grading and my desk needs organizing.

5 questions: I know the few readers that I have (I love ya for coming back to read me!!!) most of you are married. But for a moment pretend that you are back in the dating world and tell me what questions or key elements are most important to you in a mate....

The stuff that comes to mind for me are: education, financial security ( not being rich, but being able to pay your bills with out collection people chasing you down the street-with me working in Real Estate for 5 yrs, I know what bad credit can do to you and what it can cost you) and of course common interests...anyway

WHAT WOULD BE YOUR 5 questions to ask on a first date?????