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Well, i had an eventful day. I didn't sleep well. I know I was feeling GUILTY. I took Destiny my oldest kitty to have his hind claws taken out. When I adopted him from the New Orleans Humane society, his front claws were already taken out. Well, my other two babies Harmony and Whisper do not have claws. So, Destiny has always been to an advantage. He's managed to tear my leater sofas some and with the hardwood i just put down...9,500...I thought I better stop this sooner than later. I love my baby, and felt sad and worried all day. I LOVE my Vet, but still. I called and they wanted him to stay overnight tonight. He usually shares a pillow with me....I'll be lonely tonight.

Second, I met a teachers friend for lunch today. A blind date if you will. She was right he was a really nice fella. He looks younger than he is...but I didn't feel a spark. He wants to go out again, I said yes, he would be a nice guy for a friend, but...I want butterflies, fireworks, and friendship all wrapped up in one. I want John. I watched the Notebook...it happened to come on Starz this evening...and i just cried and cried. I want that LOVE. I will never be happy until I feel it again.