Stressed out is not a STRONG or ADEQUATE enough of a term to use on how my day and current life situation is feeling.

What do you do with meddlesome family members? Besides hire Tony Soprano? (It is getting close and he's as busy as he used to be)

Another strange note have any of my blog readers needed to skip your period for a week? Meaning have you even had a special occassion in which you would want "FLo" not to show up? Did your gyno do/say or offer any advice? Did you start a new pack of pills and skip your sugar pills? I put a call into mine talked to a nurse and she is checking with my doc.
I am wondering if I would have reactions....mood swings....emotional stuff and or added nervousness? Ideas????

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Blogger has really PISSED me off the last couple of evenings. For some unknown reason it doesn't want me to post pics...I would think at dinner time most people who use blogger would be having dinner...not trying to up load photos---but what the hell do I know?

Feeling bad...i stopped at my aunt's house after school. I told her I heard a squirrel up in my attic last weekend. My cats were so perplexed looking up at the ceiling in my den. I have cathedral ceiling in it and I could here something scurrying..so could they. She insisted I put moth balls in the attic. She bought me 2 boxes. While I was there, my uncle in Fla called and his wife My mom and My aunts older sister died this afternoon. We anticipated it coming, but I don't think you are ever READY. I am asking God if he is trying to get a message to me ...I feel like my mom's family is SUFFERING so much in the last 2 months. My mom's condition (which it's been rough this last week for her), My uncle and his tummy ulcer and kidney stones (he's the one selling his incredible land near Montgomery---*SIGH*) and now my aunt passing.

Am I supposed to be savoring life's moments daily? But how can I if, I feel as though things are so fucked up right now?

tears ~

Well, I just broke down to one of my co workers. She came in my room to ask about my Thanksgiving plans and I just burst into tears. (My parents were supposed to come up here) My aunt asked me to stop by her place yesterday after work. I stayed in the car cause these crutches are killing me and my arms n chest. I am using muscles I never knew I had. I was in more pain I think from them than my foot yesterday. The Doc gave me a shot yesterday that he gives to arthritis patients for inflammation and swelling.

Ok. My aunt said I talked to your mom after her doc appt this afternoon. She had a cyst in her breast that had filled with fluid. She had it drained about 2 weeks ago. Well, yesterday the doctor told her it looked suspicious and wants her to see a surgeon and an oncologist this week. OMG~ she's my mom. I mean, this can't be happening to MY MOM. Last night, all I could do was research on line for doctors in New Orleans and Cancer centers for women and Doctors records/lawsuits/complaints. I mean for the first time in my life I think I really dealt with the possibilty of death. Driving from my her house to mine.....in tears..all I wanted was to be held. I almost called my gay friend, (he would have come over) but it wouldn't have been the same. I miss John and feel like I need him right now.

I'm scared.

If I keep typing I am going to start crying again, and I just can't do that at work again today. I get kids in a few minutes.